Ignored. Brushed aside. Fading.
I went to the chatroom and said I was feeling confused, edgy, and self destructive... no one said anything or offered anything. My friends all seem too busy for me. I ask them for help in simple things and seems I've become a burden. What's the point of making friends? Why do I put myself through this?
TG is great, but busy and our schedules rarely mesh well. Katie is flighty and always seems to have other plans or "is too tired". That last part pisses me off. Tired? TIRED?! Don't give me tired! I don't sleep more than 5 hours, I have a job that requires my being awake and functioning by 5am, nightmares.
Hell, lets add the fact I'm currently feeling like crap and know that sleep won't come for a while. I really wish I could think past the self destructive part. Maybe I should have a chat with Katie...
Screw it, I'm tired!
