Therapy on Tuesday did not go well for me. She seemed almost insistent that instead of starting with therapy, we should start with meds. "Its about your quality of life. Did you want to feel better, or just okay?" That was the cincher, I'm not going back. I'll find someone else. I did not want therapy to get zombified on antidepressants! If the situation warrants it, then yes I may have to consider meds, but I don't want to start with medication then use therapy. Seems bass-akwards to me.
So, I'll try a different therapist. Damn, as if calling the first time wasn't hard enough.
Im sorry that it hasn't worked out this time, I think its a gut instinct you have to go with, because the relationship you have with your therapist is key
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ReplyDeleteI hear you. It's good that you're going to keep looking, though. You'll find the right therapist if you keep looking. But a large portion--if not all of them are going to recommend meds based on your SI--or even just how you say you feel. And if you're seeing a psychiatrist all they do is dish out meds after talking for an hour, so make sure it's a psychologist and not a psychiatrist you're going to. It was my understanding that psychologists don't deal with meds at all, as they are Ph.D.s and not M.D.s.
ReplyDeleteIn any eventuality, I understand what you're saying about the SSRIs. Maybe you could just learn a bit more about them? I know there's tons of non-SSRI medications that may be less mind-dulling. Maybe bring that concern up with them--about the mind-dulling thing, I mean?
Though the best depression medication is a healthy diet and exercise. It may not completely rid you of how you feel, but it definitely makes a HUGE difference if you can conjure up the motivation.
Just taking the step, putting yourself out there, and calling one--even going, no less, is awesome!
Good luck and hang in there. ^-^