My last session, my T said that she feels I'm not being totally honest all of the time. Not that I'm lying, but she has said she noticed that I omit certain details. She's right of course. I don't fully trust her, so of course I don't say all that I should. That comes later, I'm sure. I don't know what to expect with therapy. I'm just allowing myself to hope that good things will happen here.
I recently realized that I scratch my scalp and pick at my skin when I am worried or anxious. I had never noticed this before someone on another support site mentioned it. I thought, "Oh my... I do that, too!" It was strange to realize that there is another method that I injure, one I was not aware of until that moment. It was really unnerving. Still is. I'd like to mention this to my T, but I'm not sure how. The last session I sort of blurted about an old injury and how I'd lied about it. Never said that before. I've told the lie so long, it has become almost truth.
I go again next Friday.
I think in time you'll learn to trust, something which I realise is, that sometimes the most important thing is what you dont say, but she'll know this. Just keep working at it, you'll develop a relationship and she should understand that too :) Don't be afraid to tell her, you can just say something like, you feel like you were rushed before, and so find it hard to trust people.....that covers lies by omission :)
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