So I went to therapy today and told her that I feel like I'm talking in circles, she agreed but said that kind of thing was normal. Part of learning to trust is talking in those circles, her job is kind of like being a detective and waiting to see what happens. I also mentioned my fear of therapy: What if there is no underlying trauma that started all this? What if there is? I'm not sure which is more frightening.
I was also told something today that has stuck in my head and keeps coming back up again when I let my mind wander. "Depression is anger turned inward". That struck me, hard. She's right. I take things too harshly, too severely. Every mistake is a failure and I don't handle failures well.
Oh I cannot wait until my next therapy session...
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