Moving and Change

I think I might have to move soon, within a year or two. My half brother will find a way to hurt me once the restraining order has run its course and I don't want to be anywhere near him when it does. I wish he had never come into my life, I wish he'd fall under a damned bus!

I may have to change my name before I leave, just to make it harder for him to find me. Change my facebook page so that only my real friends know who I am . Leave everyone behind and  start over. I don't know where I'd go, but I'll find someplace. I'm clever, I can make my way.

Its 11.44pm on a Sunday and I'm wide awake. Normally, I'd be ready to sleep by now. I would take sleeping pills but I did that last night and I don't want to grow dependent on those damnable things. I close tomorrow night so I don't have to be awake at any particular time.

I have been dying for a burn, jonesin' for it for some time. I'm urgy, I'm stressed, I'm tired. Not a great combination. I hope that moving helps in some small way.